“I tell you, if one wants to be active, one mustn’t be afraid to do something wrong sometimes, not afraid to lapse into some mistakes. To be good – many people think that they’ll achieve it by doing no harm – and that’s a lie, and you said yourself in the past that it was a lie. That leads to stagnation, to mediocrity. Just slap something on it when you see a blank canvas staring at you with a sort of imbecility.
You don’t know how paralyzing it is, that stare from a blank canvas that says to the painter you can’t do anything. The canvas has an idiotic stare, and mesmerizes some painters
so that they turn into idiots themselves.Many painters are afraid of the blank canvas, but the blank canvas IS AFRAID of the truly passionate painter who dares – and who has once broken the spell of ‘you can’t.’
Life itself likewise always turns towards one an infinitely meaningless, discouraging, dispiriting blank side on which there is nothing, any more than on a blank canvas.
But however meaningless and vain, however dead life appears, the man of faith, of energy, of warmth, and who knows something, doesn’t let himself be fobbed off like that.
He steps in and does something, and hangs on to that.” – Vincent Van Gogh, Ever Yours: The Essential Letters
Reading Goals for 2021
I have felt in such a reading slump since graduating with an English degree a few years ago. I now know that this is a common experience and people have to re-learn what brought them there to begin with.
When you make something you love to do into something you have to do, some of the magic becomes lost.
I’m plunging in deep this year. I want to read more books than I have in any other year. I want to not hold myself to any kind of ideas or self judgements but rather allow exploration, whim, and joy.
Growing up, I memorized lists of the classics and scoured thrift stores to find them. Now I’m wanting to focus on books by indigenous authors, poetry, graphic novels, and the occasional thriller.
I’ve also started to sell some of the books and literary magazines I’m ready to part with on Depop so check that out if you’re looking for something good to read.
What’s on your reading list for 2021? How has your reading life changed through the years?
Quarantine Day 3-ish
Today I learned some old school html skillz and made this:
take me back to zine fest
what do you want to be when you grow up?
you can be whatever, you can be it all. <3
I keep getting asked what I’m going to do after I graduate, what kind of job I’m going to get. I’m an English major and a lot of people automatically assume that I’m going into teaching…um, that’s actually a different major. I’m not sure what I’m going to do when I graduate but I’m pretty certain that the path to where I need to be will be filled with adventure, learning, and creating connection. I’m open to that.
Superpowers of being a multipotentialite:
Idea Synthesis – combining two or more fields and creating something new at the intersection. innovation.
Rapid Learning – we’re used to being beginners and we’re less afraid of trying new things and stepping out of our comfort zones. lots of previous knowledge to apply to new things.
Adaptability – the ability to adapt to whatever you need to be in any situation.
i floated in and started living
It’s a funny thing when you have a slight, undefined interest in something and then all of a sudden it engulfs your heart like you’ve never felt joy until now. That’s how I feel when I’m working on film projects. It’s where I’m supposed to be. It’s the way I’m supposed to tell stories. It’s my responsibility to keep moving in a good direction and learning all I can. It’s my responsibility to share what I learn freely and without fear.
holding down the sound this weekend